Good news!

I just got a new Camera this past weekend, which of course means more pictures. Which, of course, everyone loves when the pictures are of dogs as beautiful as mine.

This is probably by far my favorite picture I've taken with it yet,
Impressive, huh?

Anyway, that's all.

Monday was 4 months...

since losing Bella, and I promise I'm not turning this into a sad, make you cry, post. However, if you want to know how I grieved Bella on the 4 month marker, go look at her page.

No, this is more about Psyche.

And about how when I lost Bella, I said "I'm not sure if I want to do the dog thing anymore if I don't have Bella."

Thinking back on that, I can't even imagine how I could have ever thought that. How would I have ever given up the amazing dogs I still have because I lost one? I miss her, I really do, but so do they, and they're not giving up. So neither did I, and I have no intention on it.

Just a random little post, I guess... be sure to check out Bella's page, and my recently updated Project 365 page.

It's BAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRNNNN day!

Another morning spent at the agility barn. Psyche was 100% amazing, besides literally running into the jump standard twice. I had thrown her toy and she went into it. Same jump, too. *shakes head* No one ever said she was smart, just easy to train and speedy!

She was so great today! I was very impressed with her. She's turning out to be an amazing dog. An agility friend of ours even ran her today, and she went with her, no issues. Little Dog's gonna be a Jr. Handler dog someday!

Zoey was pretty impressive today, too. We worked some on "go see!" where I let her go visit with people, but when I say her name, she comes back.

Anyway, after we got home from agility today, I let Psyche play with her new favorite thing... the HUGE tennis ball I bought for her!

So that's more or less the story. I've been pretty tired lately, so pretty depressed and thinking and crying about Bella a lot, so I held off on blogging until I had something extra happy to talk about.

Back to school!

Today was my first day back to school, which was pretty crappy in itself. Not to mention I woke up with ear issues (Do you know how scary it is to wake up at 17 and not be able to hear?) so it was starting out a bad day.

I'd been off of school since December 23rd, so I'd gotten used to staying home with the dogs all day, and the dogs got used to it too. So I crated them up and left for school and did my thing. Came home at 4:30 and went to the dogs, camera in hand, tennis ball in the other. The dogs had a total blast just ramming around and playing ball, and I think it'll be come a routine for us. Nice for me to wind down just throwing a tennis ball, waiting, and having it tossed back to me.

I snapped some pictures (working on my theme for this weeks 52 Weeks of Chazhound Dogs, so they're mostly black and white), and I hope you enjoy!

Something's gotta give.

Okay, it's time to step back and take a fresh new look at things. The blog has gone to a spot where I didn't ever want it to go. It's become that blog, you know, the one that's so sad no one really wants to read it? Yeah. That.

Bella would have never wanted this to be how I spent my free time - blogging only about my sadness at her loss, depriving the public eye (or would it be considered ear, since you're "listening" to my stories?) of how awesome my other dogs are, or how happy I am with life because of them. They are what they are because of how I raised them, and I raised them how I did, because of how Bella changed me.

I'm not forgetting her, or pushing her aside. I'm simply rejoicing in what Bella left me with - two amazing dogs, including Psyche, who she whipped into shape to be the emotional crutch I needed after her loss, and to become the best friend I didn't know I needed.

So enough is enough. No more overwhelming sadness. Sure, there will be sad posts, after all, I'm mourning the loss of a best friend, but I want this to be a place of joy - joy for the life I have now, the friends I have, the dogs I love, the family I rely on, the person I am today because of Bella, and the joy at ever having known Bella at all, because I can promise you, there are others in the world who have never known a dog like Bella, and there are people in the world who had the chance to know a dog like Bella, and love her, and have with her what I was given, and they passed her by.

A place of joy. A place to remember the one who made us, and look out onto the horizon of our futures, together as a team.